What u give....comes back

Once I had no time for u,
Now your clock is engaged....
Once I never treated u precious,
Now u treat me insane...
Once I was reluctant to be with u,
Now u are free....
Once I disliked u for no reason,
Now u have no reason to like...
Once I made u wait,
Now u make me count each second...
Once I made u cry,
Now u sent it back...
Once I hurt u,
Now u took your chance..
Once I left u in despair,
Now u left me devastated...
Once I made u mad,
Now u made me realise....
Once I never bothered if u were happy,
Now u feel yourself lucky...
Once I never let u into my heart,
Now u don't want me fill your space...
Once I left u confused,
Now u left me hopeless....
Once I never had patience,
Now u made me pratice...
Once I gave u pain,
Now u made me feel...
Once I had no thoughts for u,
Now u deleted me FOREVER...


We are what we repeatedly do; excellence, then, is not an act but a habit
- Aristotle

A birthday poem

God.....please b ready to hear
All the wishes I make for my dear
For..it's his one more new year..
Make him strong to overcome any fear...
Let his goal b very clear,
And the path towards it linear...
Let all his sorrows disappear,
With nothing that is drear....
Give him the bliss of shedding a tear,
Only if it comes with a cheer...
I want to witness this staying very near
Let my wishes start from here,
travel by the sun and moon that appear

and when they reach his ear....

make him sense my endear

Don’t take this to be a silly lear

Happy Birthday.....Enjoy with a beer :)

Birthday wishes to a wonderfull person !!!

I feel today is the most appropriate day to express my feelings towards you ….. I know how much you loved me more than anyone else from the day I came into this world . You bought me all the finest things you can afford. I know you wished to see me as a child prodigy, so you taught me hundreds of English words even before I went to the kinder garden. Each time I brought my progress card home , I knew you felt proud of me. I knew that you didn’t even need it because you had the intuition to guess what the result would be. And every time I demonstrated and proved your confidence you used to reward me with a big chocolate , ofcourse to see me happy.

Our mid-night shows and restaurants were all so memorable. The cream buns that you used to get for me were so yummy. The weekend lunches were all bitter and rude, because those were the only times you forced me into eating food which I dislike. I remember on every weekend you asked me to revise everything explained in class during that week and I used to do it very reluctantly, often scolding you in mind. I remember how you used to prepare me to school and make sure everything on me was so decent and positioned well.

It was you who replaced mum’s absence , by making us feel as if we missed nothing. You never had your food without making me eat. I knew how much care you had taken in everything related to me right from polishing my shoe , pressing my clothes and packing my lunch. It was all because of you that such a big mishap to us, did not have its effects on my studies. You made sure that everything is normal as soon as possible. But I know how much melonchalic your days are without mum. I know how much you miss her presence in every second of your life. I knew you had taken all the affliction alone. I knew that you were careful enough to hide it from all of us.

You managed to maintain aplomb even during the hard times we went through. You seemed to stand up alone through all the troubles we faced, and made sure I was not disturbed or distracted. I knew innerside you were constantly worrying a lot about them. When you understood that I was developing a wrong attitude towards everything , you tried hard correcting it , by giving me short classes , which by the way were not boring. You tried inducing in me , the feeling of love for everyone and everything we have. You always asked me to wipe out the jealous factor . Its you from whom I learnt that we should wish all good to happen to everyone , even those whom we dislike. I have seen the optimism in you and realized how happy one could be being optimistic. I have been observing how much you love everyone, especially your siblings and children, not caring if you would get the same in return or not. Your unconditional love augments your personality. But I wonder why I did not start practising it even till today.

Many a times I denied for what you said and shouted at you . Each time I did that , I regretted for what I had done to a sensitive person like you. But you were never indifferent to me even when I was rude to you. I have enjoyed all the freedom a father can grant his daughter . At times , you have kept your belief and trust on me , even when I was not confident of myself. I knew well the only reason you live is to see me great. Thanks for everything you gave me and sorry for everything I gave you.

May your artless character reward you with all good health. Long live dad.

MANY MORE HAPPY RETURNS OF THE DAY !!!!

Well begun is half done.

--Aristotle

A friendship tale

A two decade long friendship, which once involved much love and care, a kind of sheer friendship, which no one could dare break the bond, ultimately met its end. It showed two people with quite different mindsets, can be  cohabited in the name of friendship. Morals, mindsets and ego never mattered, as hearts always speak only one language, its the language of love. The reunion after two years from schooling was possible with much ease. Infact, more rapport and more understanding after the reunion made the friendship more meaningful. He is a kind of friend whom anyone else can dream of having for a life time. A person so generous, loyal and trustworthy, that one can always count on him through the thick and thin. One can readily say a person is so blessed to have such a friend, who is ever so caring, a great helper at all times, very intellectual and interpid. Besides that, he knows each one of his friend's likes and dislikes so thoroughly and makes sure that his friends are happy.

Never ever in the worst of nightmares, someone could imagine that there comes a day, when he starts hating his beloved friend. Before one could imagine of happening so, the day has already come. When their friendship started communicating with brains rather than hearts , they wondered how they had been friends all the way long. The unconditional friendship suddenly seemed to have bounds laid in between. It is that  each one has to act according to other’s wish. Then took its life, the enemy which is ever ready to break any relation….EGO. They were completely fed up with each other and decided not to buy into each other's culture. Each one started respecting their individuality and called it self-esteem.

The harmony was disturbed and then he started egressing away from his friend, picking out his people of priority. It came as a shock to the other person, as he was never expected to act that way. He created his own world with people who share the same ideas as his. He started abashing her and making sullen and satirical statements against her admist his people. Soon he didn’t even bother to throw a glance, even when he faced his friend. Little wonder when he started ignoring and rejecting his old , poor friend to the extent that he felt she did not exist . He began treating her as a cipher. He hates to talk to his friend, he hates to think about his friend, he hates to bother about her and finally he hates to see her.

It took her by surprise to see how the endearments once, turned out into bitter mocking remarks. Its typical for the other person to become so restive after realizing all that is happening to their friendship. There were countless moments of missing, of pain , and of tears for his friend. Each time she saw him , she suffered in agony for what had happened between them. Each time she would find him happy and cheerful with his friends, she would get lost in nostalgia. Each moment the fear of losing the person obscured her thoughts, loneliness surrounded and her composure exacerbated. She felt as if her world had suddenly turned lonely, leaving her a sequester life all alone . The solitude and pain slowly sapped her self-confidence . Hours and days passed away in cerebrating what went wrong, but in vain. These thoughts have been haunting too much each moment of day and night that she has become obsessessed and ended up in chaotic mental disaster. Its astounding that the person is still so boorish and indifferent to her. His callous attitude towards her, made her develop hostile feelings for him one day, for which she hated her reaction. A complex, ambivalent and imbroglio state she is in , if to still expect for something good to happen about their friendship, or start ignoring her friend and keep moving , like he already does; which by the way is so difficult for her. She is persistently worried about the wilting relation between them. But then she realized some relations have an end.

All this seems so weird that people forget their long sweet relations and give importance to their values and yield to the surge of their ego. What they miss is that, it breaks the other person’s heart and faith, not just the relation. So strange that years of trust, love and the bond of amity fall prey to ego. After all what matters are only people, relations and love. If you love somebody, love them for what they are and whatever they are. If you are to break a relationship, never make it. If you miss somebody, no matter, put your ego aside, and express it to him before it is too late; and see what difference it makes to your life. It is ok to cry for people. Never let your anger and ego take to you. Because a word or person once missed is missed forever, how much ever may you regret later and try hard to bring back. It would be great to have people around, who would always watch out for you.

With all due respects to my friend…..

--The purpose of life is a life of purpose.

A Coffee break....

A coffee is one of the most important things that makes my day . A hot coffee mug is like a golden bowl of ambrosia to me.  I sip my mug of sweet coffee with much pride and happiness. Each drop of coffee I take in, makes me more ebullient and energetic. Coffee break is a time to forget everything , a time to roll out in joy, a time to get nostalgic. It makes me feel that my day is fulfilled and fun filled. The very glance at it, brings back my energy. It's rejuvenating smell makes me ecstatic and fresh. It relieves me of all the stresses of the day. My day without coffee is a day with no life in it, a day totally void and dull. Thanks to the genius who invented coffee.

But there came a day in my life , when I decided to give a pause to it. The very decision blues me off. Its an acrid decision taken in a matter of seconds, but yet a decision taken with much hope, much thought process and determination behind it. Never in my life I had restricted myself from something which I love. Each time I feel the urge of having it, I understand how hard it is to restrain oneself from his senses, and I silently regret for dragging myself into such a situation.

This decision makes me as dull as a bleak winter day , with the roads serene and empty with no people around , and the trees with their leaves completely shredded off. Finally, I realized that it’s high time to set a break to my luxuries, fun and coffee. A coffee can make a difference to me, only if I can earn it on my own. Fate made me realize it and now it's time for me to struggle hard, not only for a coffee, for my future as well.

Am I going to build up a correct attitude out of the hard times? Is God trying to teach me some useful lessons? If so , am I learning something from it? Is everything that is happening to me, ultimately leads to something better? Is there a coffee waiting for me to cosume it very soon? Am I strong enough to overcome the troubles all alone? Is this new year going to be the same unpleasant way all along? The answer is …… I am optimistic . So I am happy that I got a chance to learn something new.

So true it is , that happiness and sadness always follow each other. Life is a hide and seek. We could do nothing to know what the next moment hides from us , but wait in excitement to discover it on our own. When we encounter something happy , we accept it with gay. When we face sorrow , then we realize what happiness is . We are to do a bit more than just waiting for the joy that succeeds sorrow and as a part of it , start finding a way to end up happy. Enjoy the moment thoroughly no matter what it is, because life is mixture of many feelings. And we win this game , only if we are ready to welcome any moment with much pleasure, discover it and know it thoroughly.

They can because they think they can.

-- Virgil

The best MUM

Dear Mum.....

Life was so happy and colorful with U . U filled our days with so much love and it hurts me that I amn't able to reciprocate the same. This day of every year in particular I spend time recollecting the few sweet memories we shared.

I still remember the saturday afternoons when you used to wait eagerly at the door for me to return from school, the custards and cakes u prepared for me , the dresses u made for me , the long summer trips we enjoyed, the weekend movies and dinners we had together. They were all so fantastic. Our house was a Shangri-la with you.

Life has become very gloomy without you. When I say our days without you are dark , I mean it. Everything went miserable and out of order . Every saturday afternoon when I returned from school, I wished to see you at our door waiting for me, which I know, could no more happen. Every now and then I used to look into the kitchen and imagine you were standing there, cooking for us. Food has become insipid, as it lacks the taste of your love, Mum!!

The way you carried off your dignity with much politeness was amazing. You were a well-mannered and composed woman, applauded by all. I draw inspiration from the humble way you spent your life. When I hear people still reminding me of the great patience you always demonstrated , I feel proud of you mum. I take it to be the best compliment, when people say I depict you.

Whenever I see a lady with her daughter beside, I feel bad that I am left alone. Whenever my frenz start telling me about their mums, I become nostalgic thinking of you. When I hear someone speak to their mum, I regret that I cannot speak to you. When i feel lazy to take my food, I wish you were there to stuff it lovingly into my mouth. Whenever I go home, I wish you were with dad , having a conversation. Whenever I am in sorrow, I wish you were there to console me. Whenever I cry, I wish you were there to wipe my tears. When I take a wrong step, I wish you were there to guide me in proper direction. When I achieve something, I wish you were there to feel happy for my success. My heart sinks in pain when the thought strikes me, that I cannot speak to you and see you anymore all through my life.

Your memories complement every auspicious occasion for us. I still wonder how well organized and different my life would have been , had you been a part of it . Even today (after 13 long years), I still can't believe what happened this day 13 years back. Many a times when I went to sleep, I wished that was just a nightmare and hoped to see your lovely face when I woke up from my sleep. I wish time had a rewind button so that we can go back and get you. I strongly believe you are still with us , around us , continuously showering your blessings upon us.I dare say, its a rude act by The Almighty to part you from us, even before I could realise your importance and enjoy your love.The last words you uttered still echos in my ears. May your soul , in the heaven , rests in peace.

This is for you....

What is ocean without water ,

What is sun without its heat ,

What is flower without its fragrance ,

What is love without you .....

As a matter of fact , Mum........ you were really AWESOME!!!

In memory of the day you left us alone , I phrased all my feelings to show how much I miss you.

Your daughter

Vijitha (its the way u spelt it)

Adieu....

The day which i even hate to think of, has already arrived ; arrived so early than i expected, to deprive me of happiness and leave me with only cherished memories...
This is the day when i learnt that good-bye is far more than a farewell. A simple word with so much pain hidden in it , a word which takes the person far away, a word which makes us uncertain of meeting the person in future , a word which when uttered brings unstoppable tears the very next moment, a word which makes us dumb struck , a word which makes us recollect all the sweet memories v shared together....
A day which showed how much i am attached , how much i miss , how much i love ...
A day on which i learnt that it is so painful to say adieu to a frend who made my life beautiful , who inspired me in so many ways , who filled me with confidence , who showed me what enjoyment is , who proved me that a frend can make a difference in life

U r definitely more worthy than these lines actually mean......
U r like a sun-flower, making me lively ...
U r like a drop of rain , soothing and comforting pain ...
U r like a rainbow, adding colors to my life...