Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Birthday wishes to a wonderfull person !!!


I feel today is the most appropriate day to express my feelings towards you ….. I know how much you loved me more than anyone else from the day I came into this world . You bought me all the finest things you can afford. I know you wished to see me as a child prodigy, so you taught me hundreds of English words even before I went to the kinder garden. Each time I brought my progress card home , I knew you felt proud of me. I knew that you didn’t even need it because you had the intuition to guess what the result would be. And every time I demonstrated and proved your confidence you used to reward me with a big chocolate , ofcourse to see me happy.
Our mid-night shows and restaurants were all so memorable. The cream buns that you used to get for me were so yummy. The weekend lunches were all bitter and rude, because those were the only times you forced me into eating food which I dislike. I remember on every weekend you asked me to revise everything explained in class during that week and I used to do it very reluctantly, often scolding you in mind. I remember how you used to prepare me to school and make sure everything on me was so decent and positioned well.
It was you who replaced mum’s absence , by making us feel as if we missed nothing. You never had your food without making me eat. I knew how much care you had taken in everything related to me right from polishing my shoe , pressing my clothes and packing my lunch. It was all because of you that such a big mishap to us, did not have its effects on my studies. You made sure that everything is normal as soon as possible. But I know how much melonchalic your days are without mum. I know how much you miss her presence in every second of your life. I knew you had taken all the affliction alone. I knew that you were careful enough to hide it from all of us.
You managed to maintain aplomb even during the hard times we went through. You seemed to stand up alone through all the troubles we faced, and made sure I was not disturbed or distracted. I knew innerside you were constantly worrying a lot about them. When you understood that I was developing a wrong attitude towards everything , you tried hard correcting it , by giving me short classes , which by the way were not boring. You tried inducing in me , the feeling of love for everyone and everything we have. You always asked me to wipe out the jealous factor . Its you from whom I learnt that we should wish all good to happen to everyone , even those whom we dislike. I have seen the optimism in you and realized how happy one could be being optimistic. I have been observing how much you love everyone, especially your siblings and children, not caring if you would get the same in return or not. Your unconditional love augments your personality. But I wonder why I did not start practising it even till today.

Many a times I denied for what you said and shouted at you . Each time I did that , I regretted for what I had done to a sensitive person like you. But you were never indifferent to me even when I was rude to you. I have enjoyed all the freedom a father can grant his daughter . At times , you have kept your belief and trust on me , even when I was not confident of myself. I knew well the only reason you live is to see me great. Thanks for everything you gave me and sorry for everything I gave you.
May your artless character reward you with all good health. Long live dad.
MANY MORE HAPPY RETURNS OF THE DAY !!!!

Well begun is half done.
--Aristotle

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

A friendship tale


A two decade long friendship, which once involved much love and care, a kind of sheer friendship, which no one could dare break the bond, ultimately met its end. It showed two people with quite different mindsets, can be  cohabited in the name of friendship. Morals, mindsets and ego never mattered, as hearts always speak only one language, its the language of love. The reunion after two years from schooling was possible with much ease. Infact, more rapport and more understanding after the reunion made the friendship more meaningful. He is a kind of friend whom anyone else can dream of having for a life time. A person so generous, loyal and trustworthy, that one can always count on him through the thick and thin. One can readily say a person is so blessed to have such a friend, who is ever so caring, a great helper at all times, very intellectual and interpid. Besides that, he knows each one of his friend's likes and dislikes so thoroughly and makes sure that his friends are happy.
Never ever in the worst of nightmares, someone could imagine that there comes a day, when he starts hating his beloved friend. Before one could imagine of happening so, the day has already come. When their friendship started communicating with brains rather than hearts , they wondered how they had been friends all the way long. The unconditional friendship suddenly seemed to have bounds laid in between. It is that  each one has to act according to other’s wish. Then took its life, the enemy which is ever ready to break any relation….EGO. They were completely fed up with each other and decided not to buy into each other's culture. Each one started respecting their individuality and called it self-esteem.
The harmony was disturbed and then he started egressing away from his friend, picking out his people of priority. It came as a shock to the other person, as he was never expected to act that way. He created his own world with people who share the same ideas as his. He started abashing her and making sullen and satirical statements against her admist his people. Soon he didn’t even bother to throw a glance, even when he faced his friend. Little wonder when he started ignoring and rejecting his old , poor friend to the extent that he felt she did not exist . He began treating her as a cipher. He hates to talk to his friend, he hates to think about his friend, he hates to bother about her and finally he hates to see her.
It took her by surprise to see how the endearments once, turned out into bitter mocking remarks. Its typical for the other person to become so restive after realizing all that is happening to their friendship. There were countless moments of missing, of pain , and of tears for his friend. Each time she saw him , she suffered in agony for what had happened between them. Each time she would find him happy and cheerful with his friends, she would get lost in nostalgia. Each moment the fear of losing the person obscured her thoughts, loneliness surrounded and her composure exacerbated. She felt as if her world had suddenly turned lonely, leaving her a sequester life all alone . The solitude and pain slowly sapped her self-confidence . Hours and days passed away in cerebrating what went wrong, but in vain. These thoughts have been haunting too much each moment of day and night that she has become obsessessed and ended up in chaotic mental disaster. Its astounding that the person is still so boorish and indifferent to her. His callous attitude towards her, made her develop hostile feelings for him one day, for which she hated her reaction. A complex, ambivalent and imbroglio state she is in , if to still expect for something good to happen about their friendship, or start ignoring her friend and keep moving , like he already does; which by the way is so difficult for her. She is persistently worried about the wilting relation between them. But then she realized some relations have an end.
All this seems so weird that people forget their long sweet relations and give importance to their values and yield to the surge of their ego. What they miss is that, it breaks the other person’s heart and faith, not just the relation. So strange that years of trust, love and the bond of amity fall prey to ego. After all what matters are only people, relations and love. If you love somebody, love them for what they are and whatever they are. If you are to break a relationship, never make it. If you miss somebody, no matter, put your ego aside, and express it to him before it is too late; and see what difference it makes to your life. It is ok to cry for people. Never let your anger and ego take to you. Because a word or person once missed is missed forever, how much ever may you regret later and try hard to bring back. It would be great to have people around, who would always watch out for you.
With all due respects to my friend…..

--The purpose of life is a life of purpose.

Thursday, January 6, 2011

A Coffee break....



A coffee is one of the most important things that makes my day . A hot coffee mug is like a golden bowl of ambrosia to me.  I sip my mug of sweet coffee with much pride and happiness. Each drop of coffee I take in, makes me more ebullient and energetic. Coffee break is a time to forget everything , a time to roll out in joy, a time to get nostalgic. It makes me feel that my day is fulfilled and fun filled. The very glance at it, brings back my energy. It's rejuvenating smell makes me ecstatic and fresh. It relieves me of all the stresses of the day. My day without coffee is a day with no life in it, a day totally void and dull. Thanks to the genius who invented coffee.


But there came a day in my life , when I decided to give a pause to it. The very decision blues me off. Its an acrid decision taken in a matter of seconds, but yet a decision taken with much hope, much thought process and determination behind it. Never in my life I had restricted myself from something which I love. Each time I feel the urge of having it, I understand how hard it is to restrain oneself from his senses, and I silently regret for dragging myself into such a situation.
This decision makes me as dull as a bleak winter day , with the roads serene and empty with no people around , and the trees with their leaves completely shredded off. Finally, I realized that it’s high time to set a break to my luxuries, fun and coffee. A coffee can make a difference to me, only if I can earn it on my own. Fate made me realize it and now it's time for me to struggle hard, not only for a coffee, for my future as well.


Am I going to build up a correct attitude out of the hard times? Is God trying to teach me some useful lessons? If so , am I learning something from it? Is everything that is happening to me, ultimately leads to something better? Is there a coffee waiting for me to cosume it very soon? Am I strong enough to overcome the troubles all alone? Is this new year going to be the same unpleasant way all along? The answer is …… I am optimistic . So I am happy that I got a chance to learn something new.

So true it is , that happiness and sadness always follow each other. Life is a hide and seek. We could do nothing to know what the next moment hides from us , but wait in excitement to discover it on our own. When we encounter something happy , we accept it with gay. When we face sorrow , then we realize what happiness is . We are to do a bit more than just waiting for the joy that succeeds sorrow and as a part of it , start finding a way to end up happy. Enjoy the moment thoroughly no matter what it is, because life is mixture of many feelings. And we win this game , only if we are ready to welcome any moment with much pleasure, discover it and know it thoroughly.


They can because they think they can.
-- Virgil